Welcome! I LOVE seeing new people here! Keep on reading and you'll be ok.
This group has members with ALL SORTS of beliefs and non-beliefs. Some still believe in God. Some do not. As for finding the 'true' organization, there isn't one. God doesn't need one. The scripture isn't, "where shall we go away to?" but rather "to whom shall we go to?" and the answer is Jesus himself. He isn't an organization of men or a corporate body. Non-conformity is OK. Uncomfortable at first but you'll grow to accept that God doesn't want everyone to be exactly the same.